LATELY // trying to 'wrap up' my life

21 June 2015

It feels like time has learnt that it has an underlying love for speed and has purchased a pair of skates to whirl around on. Needless to say I am not impressed. I finish my first year of college in a week. It is now Ramadan, I get my exam results in August, I have to apply to universities in October - I think someone is using my mind as a punchbag, Lately, I have been thinking about the future, not out of choice, but out of necessity (let's all just boycott the idea of even mentioning exams please), and it has made me realise even more (not that I didn't know already) that I have absolutely no idea where my life is going. I seem to be holding onto the reigns of a galloping horse without understanding where it is taking me, and to be honest, that's not a very fun experience. So, instead of getting caught up in the daunting and mysterious, let's take a trip down memory lane; in the form of a list, obviously.
Blue sky, occasionally.
Multi-coloured umbrella oceans bobbing around college.
Ink stains and spilled paint.
Round, panicked eyes, as exam fever sets in.
Pens scratching, papers rustling [in the exam hall].
Rain on the college library roof.
Muffled snores in class.
Hiccups [a lot of them - who knows why?]
Muttered revision filtering through the house.
I was featured on Instagram's account and blog.
I was mentioned in The Guardian's top 10 best book bloggers article.
I handed in my art on time, and finished my exams! - and then I slept, a lot.
How to Be an Explorer of The World by Keri Smith
To The Lighthouse by Virginia Woolf
An abused notebook: torn pages, scrawled handwriting, I'm sorry.
Wreck this Journal by Keri Smith
(Reading) The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood
(Remembering) The Secret History by Donna Tart
(Pinning) pretty/sarcastic/moody pictures - mostly on 'we are all stories in the end'
(Plotting) WIP: etc
(Trying) to work out my life, and failing,
So, yes, bear with me. There are some (hopefully exciting) changes coming to this little corner of the web, I haven't forgotten this bucket of thoughts, I just need to get through the last week of college and then I can start scheduling posts like a madwoman. Who thinks I can write enough posts this Summer to get me through until my next long(ish) break in Winter? ---- (hint: not me).


  1. Your lists under colors and sounds feel like a story waiting to be told haha.. How is To the Lighthouse (always wanted to check out Virginia Woolf) and The Secret History? I don't know what to pick up next!

    and OMG I'm kinda excited to see the changes you have in mind seeing that this blog is a pretty cool place as it is. Also why is everything you do very...atmospheric? (for lack of a better word?)

    1. DON'T MAKE ME MORE BUSY THAN I ALREADY AM LIA! I can't deal with telling any more stories! I am not very far into To the Lighthouse to be honest, it's going very slowly, but I'm determined to finish it! I loved The Secret History so much, my review should be up...soon, two weeks.
      I am too!! And thank you! Hmmm..what do you mean? Is that a compliment?! ahaha. I think it is..;)

  2. Ohh, the pressure of big BIG life decisions. :| I do not do well making these kind of decisions, so I completely concur with the head-feeling-like-a-punching-bag feeling. YOUR ART IS SO AMAZING THO. I am just in awe you've been featured by Instagram and the Guardian. WELL DONE.

    1. That's how I feel all the time Cait, and THANK YOU and THANK YOU.

  3. congratulations on graduating!!! it sounds like you had a fabulous year! it's crazy how you got featured on instagram AND the guardian?! *insert huge round of applause and standing ovation* so happy for you!! <333 here's to another year! xox alexandra @ twirlingpages

    1. *bows multiple times* thank you and it is crazy, i can't believe it!

  4. This whole list thing you have going on is very cool, and weirdly soothing even though its contents describe a lot of life change-y chaos, hang in there Hawwa, you'll do great! Also, you have a pinterest board for your WIP too! I have only recently begun one, its still private purely because if it isn't it feels like the pitifully small collection of images are just screaming to be written about, and I'm still trying to recover from all the writing of the last year.. and I've been meaning to read the secret history for a while, looking forward to your review :D


    1. Well it was therepautic to write, so that was good too. ;) Yes, I just started it too, like you, and I feel like one day I will stumble upon it and agressively delete it because I never finished the it sooooooon.

  5. Congrats.

    I found you through theGuardian best books blog list.

  6. Congrats! I just found out your blog and love it already:)

  7. I'm so excited to see these new changes, and OMG, congrats on all the awesome features! I still remember your excited first comment on my blog, and I can never match that, but STILL. YOU GO, GIRL.

  8. Hey congrats on The Guardian nod! I've always wanted to be featured in our local newspaper but it looks like I'll have to keep on dreaming LOL. Also, how was The Secret History???? I want to try a Donna Tart novel for a long time now. And good luck on college!!!!

  9. Just saw the Guardian Article and awesome! I wasn't aware that colors and sounds could be so specific.

    Amelia @ YA Bookologists (


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