[never again] review: only ever yours by louise o'neill

24 July 2014

Title: Only Ever Yours
Author: Louise O'Neill
Publisher: Quercus
Publication Date: July 3rd 2014
Source: For Review
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Summary: In a world in which baby girls are no longer born naturally, women are bred in schools, trained in the arts of pleasing men until they are ready for the outside world. At graduation, the most highly rated girls become “companions”, permitted to live with their husbands and breed sons until they are no longer useful.
For the girls left behind, the future – as a concubine or a teacher – is grim.
Best friends Freida and Isabel are sure they’ll be chosen as companions – they are among the most highly rated girls in their year.
But as the intensity of final year takes hold, Isabel does the unthinkable and starts to put on weight. ..
And then, into this sealed female environment, the boys arrive, eager to choose a bride.
Freida must fight for her future – even if it means betraying the only friend, the only love, she has ever known…
once upon a time i read a book full of rainbows and sunshine, a book that made me smile and laugh and cry happy tears. this was not that book. once upon a time there was book spilling with twists and turns, paranoia, heart break and pain and worry and stress and the dark dark gloom of a life without hope or light. i just read that book.
i don't know. i just don't know anymore. it has been one minute and thirty seconds since i finished only ever yours and i am currently wondering aimlessly around the house trying to dispel the darkness from my veins and the chills that are creeping up my neck. because i am still in the world of frieda and isabel. i am still banging banging bleeding. trapped. i will not cry. i give myself up. and none of this will make sense to you if you have not read this book but i can tell you this: louise o'neill's prose will have no qualms in drawing you utterly and completely into this place, this world of  horrors. it will make you react to things emotionally and physically and mentally. in all seriousness, at times i honestly felt like vomiting as an answer to the impulse of feelings this book conjured up within me. her writing is chilling, jarring and brutal and sharp. she carves with a knife and only ever yours will leave an imprint in your mind for a long long time afterwards.
only ever yours? you are raw and powerful, painful and gripping and you are overflowing with a hidden emotion that will transfer onto your readers and smother them totally. you are honest and upfront and i will never read you ever again. but i will remember you forever.
Huge thanks to Quercus for sending me a copy of this book free of charge in exchange for an honest review.


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    Georgia x

  2. Oh gosh...that whole premise kind of freaks me out. And I have to admit the barbie scares me as well. THIS WHOLE BOOK SCARES ME. But 5-stars?? *dashes to Goodreads*
    Thanks for stopping by @ Notebook Sisters!

  3. Dark... those kinds of books have really strong feels but make me really depressed...

    Oh! And I nominated you for the Sunshine Award (visit my blog for the details)

  4. I am SUPER curious about this book now (and kind of scared of reading it!). I've seen it around a few times - that cover is so creepy, I can't exactly forget about it - and your reviews freaks me out and intrigues me all at the same time. Can't wait to see what this does to me.


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