SKETCHBOOK STORIES | chapter two

26 September 2015

I am, without a doubt, a perfectionist. And while in some ways that's a blessing - I always strive my hardest to succeed at whatever I do, there are of course problems with being such a stickler for perfection, the most recent one being my art. Outside of actually studying art I always try to keep on top of my art/scrapbook journal just so that I always have an outlet for untamed creativity, but due to my inner perfectionism, I never like what I create. No matter if it took five minutes or an hour, I will almost always look at it, think meh, and cover it up with a blank page so I can start all over again. And that's not healthy, especially when it comes to what I'm doing: filling pages of a book that no-one will ever see unless I choose to show them.
So that's why I've started this series; because maybe if I share my work with someone other than my own critical eyes, I'll appreciate it more myself, even just taking photos of my own work can change my opinion - every piece of art I have ever done looks better on camera (and if you didn't know that, try it), except these perhaps, because the sun decided it did not want to be my friend today and ruined the lighting in all these photos. ARE YOU A PERFECTIONIST? HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH IT? AND DO YOU KEEP AN ART JOURNAL TOO? (creds)

14 comments:

  1. I don't deal with it. I totally obsess over it and lose my mind, until I stop feeling so. But I absolutely love your photography and what you've done here, Hawwa!

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  2. UM, SO THIS IS STUNNING AND SCREW EYE CANDY, THIS IS EYE FREAKING CHOCOLATE CAKE + CARAMEL PUDDING AND
    - I'll just stop now *coughs*

    But yes, perfectionism is a huge issue for me too, it's why my oh so loved moleskine is stashed under my bed so I don't ever have to look at all the ugly pages, luckily I've escaped too much self critiquing in my cheaper art journal that I'm using now. What works best for me is to not do the art things when I'm upset/mentally drained - bad things happen. Second is to try to avoid setting up a theme in my journal and just keep things random - that way I can't compare and judge my work relative to each other as much, if that makes sense? Hah, I'm rambling, but I'm so excited for more pages! [ and HUSH, the sun clearly adores you, these photos are gorgeous]

    Safah - OH, HOW I WANDER.

    [ http://ohowiwander.wordpress.com ]

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    1. UM NO CARRY ON SAFAH CARRY ON. ;)

      i feel bad replying with such a short comment to your long one but all i want to know is WHEN CAN I SEE THE INSIDES OF YOUR JOURNAL.

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  3. THIS IS SO GORGEOUS HAWWA. love the first two pages you showed us so much. the colour! the lines! so pretty!

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  4. I love this so much!! You're so talented! I've started sketching/painting again and I LOVE IT SO MUCH. I'm not really that much of a perfectionist when it comes to art, however, if I'm trying to draw a person or dog or whatever in front of me then I'm a total perfectionist because it NEEDS TO BE PERFECT (and it has to resemble the thing, that's the whole point) so yep. I'm perfectionist when trying to draw from a reference but otherwise meh haha! ;D

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    1. AWH thank you! I love it too, although i am NOT good at drawing people. never have been able to and i don't think i ever will be!

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  5. Your art is amazing. Just agh you're so creative Hawwa! Believe in your talent cos it's so real ;-) But yeah I too am such a perfectionist. It sucks like half the time but when I do get it right... it normally is. Maybe. Maybe not. I think the best thing is just to accept that you've tried your best and yeah everything could be improved but does it have to be? Does everything have to be constantly under scrutiny? Let it exist for a while and then perhaps try again BUT DON'T COVER IT UP OR DELETE IT OR WHATEVER. Then when you look back at earlier drafts, you may find it is better than you thought. However your art looks absolutely superb! Amazing! <3

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    1. BUT UGH IT'S NOT pinterest makes me doubt my creative abilities because HAVE YOU SEEN ALL THE PRETTY JOURNALS ON THERE?! :P
      That is VERY true, i think i need to start doing that..

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  6. I absolutely know what you mean by the perfectionism - I used to be horribly perfectionistic when it came to my writing, but oddly enough, I think writing a blog semi-daily has all but erased that syndrome. Something about being forced to post some sort of writerly endeavour on the internet for all to see - day after day after day - has been incredibly beneficial for me, and I am infinitely grateful for it.

    (By the way, I'd rather you not judge your worth based on what strangers on the other side of the screen tell you - but all the same, if it's any consolation, I think your art is breathtakingly gorgeous.)

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    1. oh gosh let's not even talk about writing and perfectionism...it's why i've still not finished a full length novel!

      Awh Topaz! <3

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  7. All the art work is incredibly gorgeous! I don't know how you can not like it - well, I actually do.
    As for me, I'm not a perfectionist. Although that doesn't mean I end up being proud of what I create. I'm also the type of person that proud or not wouldn't show my "art".
    awholelotofmess.blogspot.com

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    1. i still can't decide whether being a perfectionist is good or not..do you like NOT being a perfectionist?

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